He wasn't mine to begin with..

I merely snatched him from his world, kept him to myself for some time..

I know i couldn't make him happy, and willful as i am..

I'll be a bigger man if i just let him be.

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To you who pacified me in my pain:

I was needy and heartbroken,

And I came to you because

I know I'll never cry before you.

But I did.

I welcomed the tears--

For it was the most endearing feeling in the world..

To have someone kiss the tears that spilled from my eyes and onto my cheeks.

We spent an almost sleepless night..

And a morning of caffeine for zombies : )

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For some days, we created a world of our own

Where we hid..

A couple of reckless lovers who did not wish to be found.

There you were my sanity, my security, my sweetest secret.

I only breathed through you.

We couldn't care less that the sun has smiled again,

or that we both just lost in a childish bet..

You were the sum of everything I've always wanted to feel ( :

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Time is an unforgiving curse.

No sooner had I acknowledged 'temporal'

When 'fleeting' pulled the moment from under my soles.

I have since sought the strength I needed to give you back to your world.. to her..

I was weakened.

Now i chased the hesitant tears from your shut lids,

As i cringed with my own.

"Do you expect anything from me?"

None.

And the pain of craning my neck to see what i still could of you

Even as my cab distanced itself from the street you stand on.. : (

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If, by any chance, in the moments you are with her again and you think of me..

And you would consider the possibility that i could be more than just "meantime,"

You'll know how to find me, and get me alone.

I am not asking you to offer me a dreaded commitment..

I am only asking you to let me know..

Because i don't need to believe

That all of it.. That I.. meant nothing to you.

I can't bring myself to accept that you'd be able to shrug off what we had, just like that.

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And yes, maybe soon enough i'll find myself again in our secret world.

Everything would look the same way we left it.

I may be with a different person,

And he might sleep all throughout the night, like I did.

We may talk and laugh and whisper and maybe even cry, like we did.

But I doubt he'll be able to affect me,

Like you did.

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I hereby absolve you from all guilt, (with whatever right is vested upon me)

Because I've put this well-deserved agony upon myself.

I'd only ask from you that you do not forget

Or even dismiss what we shared.

At the very least,

We'll remain mutually one..

With the moments and memories we've created.

I will forever be indebted to you..

For affording me four, even five of the best, most defining days of my life.

I miss you.. I guess, I really need you back.. :' (

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