system error: geez, what brought you here?!

Tao: "ay kaklase nyo ba yung HOMOL..?? Sabe kasi ni _ E _ L, yun daw yung babaeng galit na galit nung nagka-girlfriend sha eh"

Gracious!!

ME: Look here N _ I _, I don't know whatever gave u the friggin idea that I got mad when u started goin out w/ ur girl.. bcoz i dint get mad and i don't even rmember givin a damn. So don't make it look like i venerate you, coz id Lyk to think ive got better sense than that!! and puh-leeease, I think it's kinda enough that ur wife already makes u feel Like "you're the man," not evry1 eLse would Like to say the same for u.. coz not evry1 Feels ur need for an eGo-boost. Ow, just in case ure in doubt, i never thought u were "The Man" anyway. Sheeez

REPLY: I don't understand what you are talking about ms. Homol and frankly I wouldn't even want to know. I believe you have far better things to do than think about your shit or whatever you'd wish to call it. But don't go bombing around raving and ranting to me like that! say whatever the fuck u want. disrespect me as a person go ahead but please do remember that I once was a professor to you. Keep your shit. Nobody needs it. Stop wasting your and my time.

Do not for one second think that because you can write a 250 word flawless essay, that gives u the right to consider yourself good enough to text me a stupid message like that. you haven't proven anything yet Hershey! Didn't say anything remotely related to what you are claiming! god! Such arrogance! You completely bombed and made my day. Don't ever text me again!

ME: good, atleast we both still know how to make good use of our times. i am not forgetting that u used to be my professor in as much as you are not forgetting that you are no more than JUST that. yes, i AM RANTING & RAVING but atleast I do it w/o bLabbering to the whole damn world!! Ow, did i make your day?! Good justice since u made mine too!! u don't have to tell me never to friggin txt u again coz i hav every bit of intention on doin that very thing. iL give u this final good txt just so that ud get it real embossed in that inflated head of yours that i never got mad about you goin steady w/ that GirL.. so out of effing prudence u once had, don't make me Look Like your SHIT by broadcasting to anyone who'd care to Listen that i was sooo affected w/ ur personal Life. demn

REPLY: Whoever fed u that wrong information ought to be happy now. For the record, and I still maintain, I do not know what u are talking about. Hershey word of advise...go slow with the arrogance. For your own good. Hindi lahat ng tao pwede ka pagpasensyahan. I still wish u the best. Just put your foot where your mouth is. You're still nothing yet. When you've proven yourself worthy of something, anything...then by all means talk as if the world owes you its life. It aint just so yet. Peace out.

ME: ow and for the record, it oughta be 'word of ADVICE, not advise,' in case uve forgotten ur ENG101. arrogant eh?? i Learned from the BEST, trust me. i don't solicit anyone's pagpapasensha coz i always speak w/ good reason & right. Everything's accounted & yes, im not forgetting ur imposed txt ruLe.

REPLY: Thought u got me? consult the websters new world dictionary 4th and latest edition neophyte..u'd be surprised. Think you are good? you are not. You've nothing to brag abt just yet kid

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You know what?! Why don't you go and debate on your "ADVISE" with my journ prof?! im pretty sure you'll both have the time of your lives

And don't even dare come up with the stupid idea that i hate you.. coz i don't. you're not special, honey. It's plain and simple, I JUST DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU!!

After all, whoever cares for the dirt on the sole of their shoes??

That's why it was QUITE INFURIATING, that the dirt on the sole of your shoe would proclaim to the part of the world who listens to him, you are affected by the life he has.

You're really good at one thing, you know?! And that's PISSING ME OFF!!

I don't hate you, but im really really mad. Paradoxical eh??

You know what NR means?? Allow me to refresh your cobwebbed memory: NO REACTION. EXACTLY!! NR was my state when you did that mushy confession thing of yours. So pardon me, but what part of the NO RXN process made you think I was mad at you for wanting someone else?!

Ow, ive already proven myself worthy of something, and its that of being a good gurlfrend to a Palanca-awardee.. you on the other hand, I don't know what you've proven yourself worthy of..

Being a BALD CALL CENTER AGENT, perhaps??

And unlike you, I don't think the world should owe me it's life..

Coz unlike you, I don't need to degrade someone just so that I could have a feel of my self-worth. Pathetic asshole.

Ow, ow before i forget. You think I need pagpapasensha?!

Geezuschrist!! And what is it that you need?!

Nakakalimutan mo naman ata na lagi nalang ako ang nagpapasensha sayo. Pagpapasensha sa pang-aabalang ginagawa mo sa NAPAKA-TINO *emphasis emphasis* kong buhay. Pagpapasensha dahil kailangan mo kong kausapin kahit Exam ko sa finance or quiz ko sa Stat kinabukasan. Dahil kailangang AKO ang makausap mo para di ka magpakamatay. sheeesz.

So dont ever ever make it look like im one of your trash.

And what were your words again?!

".. I Love you.."

".. she makes me feel like im the man and she doesn't make me cry.."

huh, huh??

Do you want me now to apologize for not making you feel like you're the man?!

(coz you're definitely not.)

That the other SHE should make you cry every so often that you had to find someone else who won't?!

Well I definitely hope you've found satisfaction in NOT crying!!

Coz I haven't.

Coz bliss for me is not equated with NOT CRYING.

I may be single but atleast I don't go hunting for sex and relationship just because some self-respecting being had the right nerve to dump me!!

And don't ever argue with me that if I hadn't known you, my life wouldn't be exciting. You are just like anyone else's pathetic love story. You don't know excitement unless you breathe in the same classroom air that in-denial pede's are also breathing in!!

I don't care if im a neophyte, a kid, a NOTHING. When has your opinion ever mattered to me??

The only downside of bein a NOTHING is that i still found myself associated with hypocrites.. the likes of you.

So while you're drivin that rusty Ferrari-wannabe of yours, while you're effing your wife, while you're feeling the airs of someone who KNOWS the world owes him its life because he OWNS one and only one piece of AX item, a dilapidated belt...

I hope you think of me, and think about the particular time when you're ready to give up anything and everything just so that I could be 25, so you wouldn't feel so alone anymore.. because you claim that I am one of the few reasons which make you conclude "All is Still Well"

I hope you remember how well I kept your shit well-hidden.

And then maybe you'd realize I don't deserve the courtesy you've given me.

In as much as you don't deserve that which has been inevitably yours.. from me..

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Lately, I've been thinking of shifting courses.

No, it's not one of my fickle-mindedness attacks..

It's just that..

Journ is not proving to be the course I sorta thought it would be.

Well, it's one thing for you to know how to edit a news article..

It's another to know what to write.

Sheeesh, what good is my subject-and-verb agreement if I can't come up with a substantial content?!

Really really

I've got all these reasons in me to shift courses but none of them involves my parents' coercion.

You see, I've been considering NURSING as my most probable next course.

Why a medical course and not one of the many other "creative courses"?

Because I have quite deduced that there is more to education than knowing your S-V agreement and the frills of maneuvering words..

I mean, why be confined to just that when you could learn a whole lot of other things??

When surely, you won't be forgetting your S-V agreement when you start dedicating yourself to a profession which involves the physiological processes of the Homo Erectus.

*sigh*

It's just that I really envy my friends in Nursing when they do their duties in far-flung communities and they get the immediate feel of solid interaction with all these random people..

C'mon now, my profession entails that someday I would be writing about the society

So why the hell am I not in their communities, seeing them up-close, immersing myself with what's for real?!

I dunno, im really doubting myself right-o.

God help me...
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I know you love me

Maybe not that much

But even a little

And if none of this is true...

I'd still believe it is

..You can't continue loving someone for what he is not..

-FRIDA-

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whew, just through browsing through MAITA's blog

okay, make that PERUSING!!

that girl really brought out the LESBIAN in me!!

THAT MAITA PONCE IS ONE HELLA GIRL!!

she's smart, she acts (theatre acting, as in the real deal!!) she paints and she knows her themes, she's good with her photography, she's a good writer-slash-movie critic-slash-movie fanatic and on top of all that, she's real pretty!!

ANAK NG DIYOS!!

ow, she also loves Natalie Portman

so that's gotta be defined aesthetics, right??

one thing though, she hates cats.. but still

she's really ONE FINE ANAK NG DIYOS!!

hmmm.. i think she also dances.. aaargh, whatever gave her the right to be wide awake when the Creator was sowing the BLESSINGS?!

basta basta, check her out here nalang para malaman nyo kung bakit sha anak ng Diyos at kung bakit sha good cause of Lesbianism ( :

haha, if you could guess who i was google-ing when i happened on her page, then ure my honest to goodness (just add the hyphens) REAL FRIEND!!

Lord, if you can't make me a Johnny Depp in my next life, atleast make me a Maita Ponce..

then maybe i'd be better fitted to my M-A-R-I

aaaaawww, HOTNESS!! another ANAK NG DIYOS!!

THEY are two of the few chosen people who could tell me i am NOTHING

and i wouldn't even flinch

duh, they're anaks ng Diyos, remember?!

ikaw rin gurlfrend, anak ng Diyos

lalo na pag di ka nagsasalita

RUSSIAN BUYOY!!

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