have recently come back from a trip to Calatagan, Batangas

and ive realized that calatagan is way far from the metro

i used to think kc that any place in batangas is just an hour drive away from manila

imagine, being on the road for almost five friggin hours inclusive of mere 10-15 min stopovers!!

but really, what reason have i to complain??

after all, it was an all-expense-paid trip

and im one of the newbies in the team

so ok,, ( :

i'll be uploading pix in the gallery as soon as richard gives me a copy

hehe, inabuso kc nmeng tres marias de pro-be ang digicam ng unico bonito namen eh!!

anyhow, got officially initiated into V on the last night of the trip

i had an idea beforehand of what my initiation would be

when i was already blindfolded, i kinda dint take it seriously

i mean after all, they couldnt possibly capture that which im ultimately creeped out of just so that i could be properly purged of my inhibitions, right?!

so i was giggling the first few seconds until

Sir Lito said: "oi tama na yan ha, sobra na yang ginagawa nyo"

sh*t!! i freaked out instantly and kinda crazily jumped

even shed tears that were seen the minute kuya dric took off the blindfold..

haaayyy.. un lang pala un grrrrrrr!!

i thought i get to move on to the next level since for the most of that 30 seconds i did succeed in keeping still

eh kaso, they had a prior agreement pala na since i always came in late during the trip e.g. nung departure morning *almost forgot about our outing kundi pa nanggising c mommy* at wake-up call the following morning,

i had to do this other consequence..

which i failed the first time

and the second time made me wish i never knew dear beer at all!!

aaargh, why does truth have to be sooo shameful at times?!

buti na lang talaga sport c kuya erick, even congratulated me after the rites

hehe kilig ang bata

kaso nakita q na gf nun eh

alangya, hands down walang laban

mas naging crush q pa nga yung gf eh *prettyness*

moving on, moving on

wow!! kuya dric really commands attention when he speaks

that guy quite earned my esteem in just a few minutes of good talk before us

wala lang, why did i even think he was a bagful of air, in the first place??

he has a right to carry airs naman eh ( :

one of the things he said:

"you dint sign up for friendship here, you signed up to write, to work. friendship only comes as a consequence of working together"

thanks kuya dric, now i understand

and besides, you can never use your own character as the standard for the next person's character..

kaya kung di mo matimpla ang ugali nila, isipin mo na lang..

baka di rin nila matimpla ugali mo.

haaay, buti na lang im at ease with my "co-fetuses"

especially Kristine, i think i am that girl if i recklessly break my parents' hearts more often

astig talaga, i never thought i would get that close to her kasi 1st impression q dun mahadera eh

tsaka okay pa ang tagteam ng richard at jenny,,

( :

Ate Palo reiterated this one while we were in our room:

"it's not what you can do but what you can endure"

and it does make a lot of sense

coz sometimes you can extend all effort in furnishing an article with leaping pictures of life

and have no one commend you for that

even get all kinds of flak for it..

the trickiest part is finding the sanest way to stomach it all without necessary losing your voice

remember that the newspaper is never a democratic organization and that your editors will have the last say

but i could always have the last laugh,, ; )

sheesz, why did i choose this profession again??

ow yeah, after the initiation rites, got myself beer

and since they were only offering sanmig light and pilsen

i opted for pilsen na

one staffer commented, "tambay ka, sunog baga?!"

because every one else was drinking sanmig light

"eh bakit ba, kesa naman yang light para lang aqng nagpalaki ng tyan!!" i retorted

coz it's true, i don't like light it's like filling up your tummy with empty air

atleast with pale pilsen, kahit pano may hagod

but honestly, that was my 1st time with pilsen

it's usually strong ice, redhorse, vodka, wine or bailey's

and i ultimately try to steer away from brandy and tequila

the last time my good good friends forced me fundador

they got themselves a bagful of undigested hotdog on the sink and a microtape worth of confessions!! *lol*

i know i know

i told myself i'd abstain from alcohol atleast until christmas because im starting to have this awful beer belly na

but that day i got my grades *courtesy of keybin*

and damn was i dissapointed..

i frankly expected a higher than 1.5 average

and i got a slap of 1.625

ayan, sinamahan pa ni tine ng ka-bitteran nya with TDC tas ayaw aq samahan uminom nung tao

kaya ini-inom q naren sha!! ( :

i don't care how many people would tell me that 1.625 is okay since i still got myself in the dean's list

point is, im one of the few people who never celebrate terrible MEDIOCRITY

sorry, but if i had the choice on things, i'd gladly scrap the cum laude title because it gives students an "erroneous" right to indulge in mere superficial capabilities!!

aaargh, grrrrrr!!

Senyor gave me the all-time low of dos

what's up with that?!

i could contest that i did more than a "dos" worth in his class!!

asar talaga sobra!!

okay, so i only had 2 pilsen bottles but add that up to my sleepless nights

i did get quite tipsy..

and i ended up sleeping on a boat err.. on the boat dock, alone ( :

i separated myself from the groups that were either staying up and having fun or sleeping well and having serenity..

the last time kc that i was "tipsy" and with V people

i said a whole lot of things with dire irretractable consequences

so better alone than made fun of, rytie??

and besides, i found myself needing some time alone with myself..

i needed to assess myself..

for the failures that outnumber my miniscule successes despite what hard work ive given

i needed some alcohol in my sytem to garner enough strength

to question my God why I am nowhere where i want myself situated..

sometimes you need to see the stars from the slit of boat sails to comprehend

just how little you still are..

wandering alone makes you think of who'll come along searching for you

and alone there, beneath the starry sky and the seemingly immense water with no one delusional enough to frantically call out your name in the vast darkness

i got a glimpse of how my ever after would feel like..

calm, serene with the resounding stillness of a conversation with the heavens.. but nevertheless, alone.


raye: "natulog ka sa bangka?! alamo minsan feeling q psycho ka, di nga!!"
moi: *giggles*
raye: "kita mo, tinawag na nga kitang psycho tinawanan mo pa q"
moi: *says to myself* "sometimes insanity makes me human,,"

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you know just how much i love mi novia??

for our 2nd monthsary, i earnestly pleaded for 2 hours with this panaderia along p.noval for that autoload streamer of Dennis Trillo whom mi novia hearts so much even if he *Trillo* is not that cute naman hehe

JAMAICA JANE JUGUETA PASCUAL, tandaan mo manlilibre ka kung DL ka!! ano, tignan ko grades mo?! ; )

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aaargh, there's this oktoberfest-wannabe on our street right now

and darn, right now i could hear the loud loud band singing push the button

dang, that song makes me wanna PUSH someone off the cliff.. and into my arms bu-wahahahahaha

earlier they were singing insensitive

NATIONAL INSENSITIVE DAY BA NGAYON?!

earlier jhen was singing it sa KTV

hmmm.. ni ayokong isipin ang naiisip q,,

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while on our way home from enrolment,

jhen and i saw a bride getting off the car for the wedding waiting for her in the church

jhen: "pangitain ba to, na magpapakasal na sha?! ayoko!!"

it made me think,

as the bride walks down that proverbial aisle, what are her exact thoughts??

or that groom waiting for his bride, what is he thinking about??

do they think of the same things?? pending bills, a love fulfilled, that swelling tummy, the series of responsibilities which follows or perhaps old flames they'd much rather marry than this one??

moi: "pangitain yan, papakasal na kc sha, i mean yung akin.. yung dati.. huh??"

before, even the marriage banns in my church affect me..

ive already been through losing two guys to marriage *my sentence construction seems to imply a queer notion*

weddings do not bother me as much anymore

but if i lose a third to marriage..

i think i'll try a shift from single blessedness to that greater calling,,

: )

note: just when you thought you couldn't be any more bummed, your ex shows up to add useless noise to an already crushed day
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months ago, i bought this fortune cookie from chowking

here's what my first ever fortune from a cookie read:


I'm trying

I'm doing.

off to tagaytay now, finally a place where i could always be a carefree child

for now, i bid you farewell--all cares in this part of my world,,

^__^