system error: geez, what brought you here?!

wheee, so gotta love foozball!! with all the mud it has to offer, who wouldn't go wild?!

though, ive gotta bear in mind to cover my nose when i headbutt the ball, or else.. or else i ruin yet another SPORADIC date of my JACA bu-wahahahahaha alabhe girlfriend!!

never thought j-U-ngle b-A-lls could inspire such melancholy and nose-bleeding, rytie pet fatees?? ( :

uhmmm, okay so my girlfriend tagged me to put in five songs here and to tag five people as well--

so here are the top 5 songs playing in my mind right now:

5. My Humps- Black Eyed Peas-- huli kong dinownload sa limewire bago nag-kras pc q na thankfully ngayon ay working na ule!!

4. di ko alam title eh, basta matandang kanta and it goes like this-- "Darling, you can count on me lalalalalalala.. devoted to you" *smile, vocalist ata aq pag nag-battle of the bands kame with my girlfriend!! ( :

3. I just don't know what to do with myself- White Stripes-- fave namen ni ate video nyan.. aaargh, i miss her sooo much!! ( :

2. I would do anything for love (full version)- Meatloaf -- "would you cater to every fantasy i've got.." ??

1. yung christmas song na pinapatugtog sa malls na hanggang ngayon ay di q alam ang title.. kinanta sha ni britney spears.. ata,, ( : "Santa, can you hear me?? I have been so good this year.. lalalalala"

ow, inform me right away when you recognize the songs i don't know the title to, mmm-kay??

and now im tagging.. hmmm..

bu-wahahahahaha only a handful know this site!!

here goes nothing:

1. bhabez q!! buhayin mo na ang blog mo!! ( :
2. pet fatees, may blog ka diba?!
3. eevan, kung magawi ka man dito. ule. ( :
4. balik tag gurlfriend jaca!!
5. at shempre, di ka ligtas JHEN!! ( :

wheee!!

^__^

jived by the incurable romantic | mercredi, décembre 14 | 5:09 AM

dashing through the rain and never been kissed-- caution: not your kind of sunny entry |

it felt all too good, to hold your CLOSED umbrella in one hand and jog along wet streets as a furious downpour soaks you and your backpack..

it felt so good, to feel the steady stream of water on your face.. to feel it blur your vision.. to feel it cloud your thoughts..

it just felt good to know that in that rain, no one's tears are falling.. or at least, no one would notice..

it's funny that every movie i see should remind me of him.. maybe that's how it is, when you're this low, everything just seems to be a constant reminder of him.. you do a marathon of korean movies and no matter how shallow and unconvincing the storyline is, you still end up wishing you could have a little bit more of that in real life.. and then you look up..literally.. you look up coz it's the only way you could muster a smile despite the tears which threaten to spill..

and then you see your all-time-favorite-romantic movie, NEVER BEEN KISSED..

the only proper way of watching and judging a movie is by seeing yourself in that one specific moment and then making sure you rise above it..

shit..

how do you rise above this, huh?! how do you rise above a moment when just as you've promised him there is absolutely nothing which could drive you away from him, he deserts you.. without a single word to keep you posted, he just brings it all down to your face in one blow of a serving.. like you pleaded with him to have you instead, like you so much as obliged him to be with you..

and you know what it's like for him to dangle before you that which you had for him, allow him him to use it against you, think that for whatever reason and at the most, he considers you a friend.. then the second he finds a woman that good.. he discards you.. no story to tell, no notification of God-knows-what kind, no nothing!! you were just left there discarded..?!?! IT'S YOU BEING DISPOSABLE--that's exactly how it feels like..

but then again, the ending of Never Been Kissed went with Drew Barrymore not having her guy at that exact time she expected him to be there.. Almost in tears, she drops the microphone as if to signify the hardest of all defeats has been thrown her way.. and then he comes, late with the excuse that it took him forever to get there.. and then the movie becomes your all-time-favorite because it ended like that..

one could see it in two ways, the first and the utterly sophomoric way of looking at it is that, you may not have your guy now but sooner or later, he'll come around.. but lemme tell you how you should look at it-- The Count of Monte Cristo way--

The Count of Monte Cristo said, that in this world there is no real happiness or pain, there is only a comparison of two states.. for you to be happy, you must know what it's like to be in pain..

.. and for you to be truly happy, you should've first experienced searing pain..

so I'm really thankful of a good news from this thing my friends and i have labored on-- i guess with all my hurting, this news gives me a brand-new momentary excuse to be that happy..

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and you know you couldn't hate him.. can't even get mad at him.. not even close..

for how could you possibly hate someone you.. you care that much for.. someone you learned a great deal from.. someone you know you'd always..

someone once told me that when you love someone, you can never UNLOVE them anymore..

and while i would give anything and everything to debunk an assertion this confounding..

i know, i'd have more in myself arguments to support the statement..

coz really, when you love someone.. no matter how you've moved on.. a part of you, that part of you which remains unwittingly beholden to the past, shall continue loving him..

i could not unlove him.. but maybe i could DE-LOVE him..

Semantics would rule that de-love is such an abomination of the language.. but i'd use it anyway

to DE-LOVE would mean, to finally give up on that tiniest speck of HOPE that you could be His ONE..

yes, i could definitely de-love him..

just not tonight..

coz it still hurts like hell..

^__^

jived by the incurable romantic | mardi, décembre 13 | 6:06 AM

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